XI
Patience

Today on my way to Shambala, I found some huge mountains like walls of rock and sand blocking my way. They were very high, reaching metres and metres up into the sky.

 There was a path climbing up to the left that disappeared from sight, and then there were chasms, holes which sank so deeply into the earth that when you looked down you couldn’t see the bottom. There were also tunnels that burrowed into the mountains and disappeared within.

  I watched and watched this impressive place and considered which path to take: upwards towards the peaks, through the tunnels, or jump down… but my intuition told me:   - Don’t move! Don’t move!...

 I was afraid of getting lost and not being able to find my way back. I shouted for Ananda, but she didn’t appear; there was no one, just tremendous desolation, and I was still considering what I should do…

  There was a place near the crossroads that was flatter, and I sat down there to wait. Time passed and nothing happened, I started to breathe deeply, I felt I should keep silent, follow my intuition and not move. I shifted my body and got into the lotus position, I sought my silence, I stopped my mind following the paths of indecision and fear and I started to breathe slowly…

  Then I felt the virtue of patience as a real positioning in my being and my existence.  At that moment, a crystal tetrahedron appeared all around me with its point upwards, and then another formed with the point downwards crossing the other one to form a transparent Merkaba all around me.

  I listened to my breathing inside the Merkaba and it was very beautiful. I had a feeling of great peace and serenity inside me, as if my soul was floating in space and there were no conflicts or doubts around me…

  Purity entered through my lungs and spread throughout my body, in a breath supported by centuries of seeking and discovering…  I had just found a place where I could remain in silence and lose my impatience, my anxiety for something or someone…

  Only being... Held in the air, surrounded by the Merkaba, in a pure transparent breath of life and transmutation.   Directing myself towards my superior self, towards my true self, in communion with the Creator and His sacred eternal light of Love…

   I also felt the lines of the world crossing my body…an extremely powerful one went from the crown of my head to the base of my coccyx; another went from shoulder to shoulder; another crossed my chest through the heart chakra and two more lines came out of my hips. In this way I observed the positioning lines of my self in the universe.  My breathing was slow and crystalline… I felt good. I stayed in that state of quietude for a long time, until the Merkaba suddenly started to dissolve and there appeared before me an enormous angel like the ones in the Renaissance paintings…

His white wings were very wide.  He had a masculine face, but with no beard, he went like the wind and he was smiling... Then he spoke to me and said:

I am the Angel of the Resurrection
All paths lead to me
I am the before and the after
I wait always and they always arrive
It is my contemplative state...
 
There is nothing and there is everything
I don’t fall into illusion
I stay in my highest self
With unconditional love
For my Creator and my immortal self...

  The Immortal Angel moves his enormous wings in space and raises a wonderful breeze full of light and purity, his face shines and smiles with compassion…
  And the angelic being spoke again:

The Angel of the Resurrection
Always waits...
Because the moment always comes
When the true essence
Of any being...
Ascends
 
It is then that I move worlds
Thoughts and motives
And put everything in its place
So that it may happen...
 
From a human being to a tree
Or from an insect to a megalithic rock...
It matters not, because everything ascends, my love...
Everything ascends... 

  Its great wings started to move more quickly and like a whisper in my ear he said:

  -Now with gentleness close your eyes and let yourself be cradled by your soul, which loves you and contemplates you…

  I closed my eyes like the angel had asked and I felt that he dissolved in space, the same as the mountains, the countryside and everything else around me…

 Then I turned around and without looking back, I went home.